Day Two, Cushing’s Awareness Challenge 2013

day-late

 

Uh, Oh – I’m already a day late (and a dollar short?)…and I’m not yet sure what today’s topic will be.  I seem swamped by everything lately, waking up tired, napping, going to bed tired, starting all over again.

It’s been like this since I was being diagnosed with Cushing’s in the mid-1980’s.  You’d think  things would be improved in the last 25 years.  But, no.

My mind wants things to have improved, so I’ve taken on more challenges, and my DH has provided some for me (see one of my other blogs, MaryOMedical).

Thank goodness, I have only part-time jobs, that I can mostly do from home.  I don’t know how anyone post-Cushing’s could manage a full-time job!

I can see this post morphing into the topic “My Dream Day“…

I’d wake up refreshed and really awake at about 7:00AM and take the dog out for a brisk run.

Get home about 8:00AM and start on my website work.

Later in the morning, I’d get some bills paid – and there would be enough money to do so!

After lunch, out with the dog again, then practice the piano some, read a bit, finish up the website work, teach a few piano students, then dinner.

After dinner, check email, out with the dog, maybe handbell or choir practice, a bit of TV, then bed about 10PM

Nothing fancy but NO NAPS.  Work would be getting done, time for hobbies, the dog, 3 healthy meals. Just a normal life that so many take for granted.

A Quarter of a Century

I had my one, and only, pituitary surgery on this date in 1987.  Of course, I was trying to get a diagnosis for several years before that.

I know it’s hard to get a diagnosis now – imagine how hard it was over 30 years ago – before the Internet, Facebook, Twitter, message boards, chatrooms.  No online support – no support anywhere.

Finding any information possible at the Public Library.  Days that you feel like death warmed over, heading out to the library to Xerox medical articles you don’t understand, poring over them at home, trying to find any kernel of hope for what you have.  Then trying to convince doctors when your family doesn’t even believe you.

Finally, a doctor believes you…but he’s the wrong kind of doctor so he sends you away.  Another year goes by.  The endo recommends surgery but there are only 3 possibilities anywhere.  NIH – close by and free, Montreal – they speak French – and San Francisco.

After a diagnosis, 6 weeks of inpatient testing at the NIH.

From my bio at http://www.cushings-help.com/maryos_story.htm

There were about 12 of us there and it was nice not to be alone with this mystery disease. Many of these Cushies (mostly women) were getting bald, couldn’t walk, having strokes, had diabetes. One was blind, one had a heart attack while I was there. Towards the end of my testing period, I was looking forward to the surgery just to get this whole mess over with. While I was at NIH, I was gaining about a pound a day!

The MRI still showed nothing, so they did a Petrosal Sinus Sampling Test. That scared me more than the prospect of surgery. (This test carries the risk of stroke and uncontrollable bleeding from the incision points.) Catheters were fed from my groin area to my pituitary gland and dye was injected. I could watch the whole procedure on monitors. I could not move during this test or for several hours afterwards to prevent uncontrolable bleeding from a major artery. The test did show where the tumor probably was located. Also done were more sophisticated dexamethasone suppression tests where drugs were administered by IV and blood was drawn every hour (they put a heplock in my arm so they don’t have to keep sticking me). I got to go home for a weekend and then went back for the surgery – the Transsphenoidal Resection. I fully expected to die during surgery (and didn’t care if I did) so I signed my will and wrote last letters to those I wanted to say goodbye to. During the time I was home just before surgery, a college classmate of mine (I didn’t know her) did die at NIH of a Cushing’s-related problem. I’m so glad I didn’t find out until a couple months later!

November 3, 1987, the surgeon, Dr. Ed Oldfield, cut the gum above my front teeth under my upper lip so there is no scar. He used tiny tools and microscopes. My tumor was removed successfully. In some cases (not mine) the surgeon uses a plug of fat from the abdomen to help seal the cut. Afterwards, I was in intensive care overnight and went to a neurology ward for a few days until I could walk without being dizzy. I had some major headaches for a day or two but they gave me drugs (morphine) for those. Also, I had cotton plugs in my nostrils. It was a big day when they came out. I had diabetes insipidus (DI) for a little while, but that went away by itself – thank goodness!

I had to use a foam product called “Toothies” to brush my teeth without hitting the incision. Before they let me go home, I had to learn to give myself an injection in my thigh. They sent me home with a supply of injectible cortisone in case my level ever fell too low (it didn’t). I was weaned gradually off cortisone pills (scary). I now take no medications. I had to get a Medic Alert bracelet. I will always need to tell medical staff when I have any kind of procedure – the effects of my excess cortisone will remain forever.

I went back to the NIH for several follow-up visits of a week each where they did all the blood and urine testing again. After a few years NIH set me free. Now I go to my “outside” endocrinologist every year for the dexamethasone suppression test, 24-hour urine and regular blood testing.

As I get further away from my surgery, I have less and less chance that my tumor will grow back. I have never lost all the weight I gained and I still have the hair on my chin but most of my other symptoms are gone. I am still and always tired and need a nap most days. I do not, however, still need to take whole days off just to sleep.

I consider myself very lucky that I was treated before I got as bad as some of the others on my floor at NIH but think it is crazy that these symptoms are not taken seriously by doctors.

Notes on the Magic Foundation Cushing’s Conference, 2012

Here are links to all the posts in order, although some still need to be edited.  I posted these directly from the meeting hall with no rereads or rewrites.  If anyone has anything to add, edit or delete, please let me know!

 

  • Magic Conference: Understanding your Pituitary Gland in Health and Disease

Dr. Frohman will present an overview of the pituitary gland. He will cover general aspects of pituitary function and testing and also review the types of pituitary disease that occur, including pituitary tumors and Sheehan’s Syndrome. Many people ask and wonder if Growth Hormone Deficiency can be inherited. Dr. Frohman will also briefly address that concern.

 

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-conference-understanding-your.html

 

  • Magic Conference: Testing and Diagnosis Process for Pituitary Disorders

Pituitary disorders can be difficult to diagnose in many cases. Dr. Salvatori will discuss the different testing and diagnostic procedures to determine the pituitary disorder. MAGIC receives many calls asking about diagnostic procedures. This segment will be helpful in understanding what procedures are used today to provide the best treatment available.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-conference-testing-and-diagnosis.html

 

  • Magic Conference: Managing Medications and Aftercare of Treatments

It is crucial to monitor your treatments and aftercare of treatments when living with a pituitary disorder. Dr. Salvatori will discuss the importance of these issues so you will be aware of how to manage your pituitary disorder. A simple diagnosis does not mean that medications may be altered or changed in the future. This segment will assist you with information on how to manage your future.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-conference-managing-medications.html

 

  • Magic Conference: Cushing’s Disease, Are We Closer to Medical Therapies?

A significant proportion of patients with Cushing’s Disease are not cured by primary surgical treatment, the disease is prone to relapse and significantly damages quality of life. Adjuvant radiotherapy is an increasingly unattractive option for clinicians who wish to spare their patients hypopituitarism and other potential complications. Some pharmacological options are currently available but tend to have dose-limiting side effects. New agents recently approved or under investigation will be discussed and strategies to select the optimal drug or drug combination for individual patients reviewed.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-conference-cushings-disease-are.html

 

  • The Trip So Far…

MaryO’s personal experiences and thoughts

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/the-trip-so-far.html

 

  • Cushing’s Help Turned Twelve During the Conference!

Twelve  years ago I was talking with my dear friend Alice, who runs a wonderful menopause site, Power Surge, wondering why there weren’t many support groups online (OR off!) for Cushing’s and I wondered if I could start one myself.  We decided that I could.

This website (http://www.cushings-help.com) first went “live” July 21, 2000 and the message boards September 30, 2000. Hopefully, with this site, I’ve made  some helpful differences in someone else’s life.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/today-we-twelve.html

 

  • Magic Conference: Treating Cushing’s Disease with Surgery: Ways of Achieving a Cure

Dr. McCutcheon will discuss the ways of treating Cushing’s disease from the surgical perspective, including the different ways of getting to the pituitary, the chances of success, and the potential complications. In addition, special nuances and pitfalls ofsurgery in Cushing’s (as opposed to other types of pituitary tumor) will be addressed.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/magic-conference-treating-cushings.html

 

  • Phil and the Zebra Undies

Dr. McCutcheon is a surprise participant in a gift to Phil.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/phil-and-zebra-undies.html

 

  • Real Talk: Psychological Process of Illness, part 1

This Segment will be broken into two sections. Part I will be provide an open opportunity for participants to ask relevant questions around the emotional/mental issues in living with a chronic illness. Participants will be able to openly talk about depression, anxiety, trauma, and other processes that occur when living illness.

 

Due to confidentiality issues, most of this segment is not shared.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/real-talk-psychological-process-of.html

 

  • Real Talk: Psychological Process of Illness, part 2

Part II will focus on seeing ourselves as survivors of illness and the process of staying empowered through illness that impacts us in such a powerful way. Principles of empowerment and how one can turn adversity into opportunity will be discussed. This segment should create an environment that is non judgmental and motivating.

 

Due to confidentiality issues, most of this segment is not shared.

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/real-talk-psychological-process-of_21.html

 

  • The Rest Of The Trip

Wind-up and heading home

http://cushingshelp.blogspot.com/2012/07/the-rest-of-trip.html

Eventually, all these posts will be edited, cleaned up and typos corrected.;

Without a shadow of a doubt.

Without a shadow of a doubt.

…So I will say this to anyone reading who is in the same situation that I was: Don’t give up. Stay strong. If you know in your heart that something is wrong, keep pushing until you figure out what it is. Be calm, be implacable, be willing to listen and to accept hypotheses. Take the tests you’re offered, even if you don’t agree that you need them – they might throw up something useful. Be assertive but not aggressive. And don’t ever quit…”

Great post on the difficulties of getting a diagnosis. The author is participating in the Cushing’s Awareness Challenge by request. She doesn’t have Cushing’s but is hypopituitary.

via Without a shadow of a doubt..

Day Five, Cushing’s Awareness Challenge

 

The above is the official Cushing’s path to a diagnosis but here’s how it seems to be in real life:

 

 

Egads!  I remember the naive, simple days when I thought I’d give them a tube or two of blood and they’d tell me I had Cushing’s for sure.

Who knew that diagnosing Cushing’s would be years of testing, weeks of collecting every drop of urine, countless blood tests, many CT and MRI scans…

Then going to NIH, repeating all the above over 6 weeks inpatient plus an IPSS test, an apheresis (this was experimental at NIH) and specialty blood tests…

The path to a Cushing’s diagnosis is a long and arduous one but you have to stick with it if you believe you have this Syndrome.